My mom died of colon cancer three weeks ago and the end was truly terrible..she was awake almost to the end...screaming for my dad and I to help her the pain was so terrible ( nothing controlled it) I held the basin while she vomited blood and suctioned the blood away as she slowly drowned in her own blood..I am ashamed to say that I knelt at the bedside the last two hours of her life and begged God to end her suffering..I begged God to just take her so her pain would stop..I can not stop reliving it all and I cant sleep...How do I make this stop???
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