Hi, my name is Hope, and I'm 22 years old. And well umm, I lost my dad in September from Lung Cancer. I lost him only 1 month after I found out he was sick.. When I was about 17 Years old my parents got divorced, ok that was fine for me, I hated my mom, and sometimes I still do lol. And when I was 19, my dad started suicidal things, ya know taking all his pills, driking, etc.. And I was there, I was the one taking care of him. I was the one that kept taking him to the 4th floor of the local hospitals, I was the one, that seperated his pills. It was always me. Till about a year and a half ago. He moved in with Grandma, and started applying for Social Security. I used to call him once or twice a month, ya know to see how he was doing, etc.. When I lived down there with my Aunt and Uncle, I used to watch TV and Races with him, etc.. I mean he's my dad..I have millions of memories with him.. And to make a really really long story short.. When he died.. My Aunt and Uncle took his urn, which belonged to me and my brother, my grandmother took his service flag, and left us nothing.. Nothing at all!!! And now, I'm angry at them... But my problem is I can't seem to be happy. I can't smile anymore, I can't laugh.. I'm always depressed, I don't see any reason to really, go on... And I'm always almost crying.. Like even now I wanna cry... Maybe someone here can help me.. Hopefully someone here can help me... God Bless
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