recently I found out that my partner had died and that it looks like it was either a suicide or a cry for help that went wrong. i have so many strange emotions going on... i feel so so angry at him, his family for not seeing the signs and mostly for myself ( we had had an argument previously, since was partly sorted and we were going to meet up and talk at the end of the week). i feel that i cannot grieve him properly yet as i dont understand and cannot accept that it has happened yet. I keep thinking that he is going to come in or phone/text any moment. i was wondering if anyone else has been through a similar experience so that i can start to feel im not alone and that this may get better and im not always going to feel like this.
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