This will be my 3rd Christmas without my first born daughter. She was still born when I was 33 weeks pregnant. We found out her heart had stopped and the long wait to deliver her (2 days) was excruitiating. Emotionally, mentally, and physically. Each holiday, I feel it gets more difficult instead of getting better. I have since had 2 beautiful children. A girl and a boy. they are 18 months apart.
My son looks a lot like my daughter that was stillborn. I dread holidays. I dread birthdays. I replay over in my mind what could have happened, what I could have done differently, but the thing is that it couldn't be prevented. It was a cord accident. Even if I knew, by the time I would have hopped in the car and began driving to the hospital, she would have been gone. Only way it could have been prevented is if they were monitoring me in the hospital and had an emergency csection. But the pregnancy was great. I had a lot of morning sickness throughout the entire pregnancy but otherwise, she was growing and striving. She was perfect. And now she isn't here.
This is going to be the 3rd Christmas...I makes me sick. I am finally seeing a therapist. Who is great. I'm on medication now. Of course I'm out of work now because I was injured at work so I'm off until at least 2/1/18. Plenty of time to sit and think about things. I need to keep busy.
Anyone else have a stillbirth?
I had a pretty good day today. I cleaned my little apartment and was spending time working out a little and practicing walking. Then all of a sudden I was just wrapped in cold sweats and tears. I got stuck on a thought and before I could banish it, it got me. Now, I feel somewhat nauseated and just ready to sleep. I just don't know how to fight back sometimes. I try the deep breathing and a...
Please help, I have been suffering with anxiety and been depressed, I was steady as I had a good support system. I was in a realationship for two years but yesterday out of nowhere she broke up with me and now my main support system is gone. I have nobody to talk to (not even just about being anxious and all that, but nobody to talk to and no interactions.) It hurts emotionally and physically...