As I approach the one year mark of my husbands murder, it seems like I'm back at square one. I'm sad, hurt, angry, alone and lost. My situation with money and physically adjusting is gotten better but inside I'm still a basketcase. I can't get him out of my mind and alot of it is, I don't think I want to. I'm terrified of "letting go". I love and miss him so much and all I have is memories-so how can I let that go? I try to think positive thoughts and stuff but just like today...I got some very good news and the first person that came to mind was him-I wanted so much to share my news with him. I talked to him for quite a while but it's just not the same. What do I do? I feel like I'm at war with my own self, trying to "move on". It's just that Raymond was everything that held me and my life together, he was my life- I can't let go...I just can't. Any advice out there from others in my situation? I need all the help I can get! Thanx so much!
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