I went to Mom's grave yesterday and as I was leaving I suddenly had flashbacks of the night she died, making the arrangements, sitting on the porch for 3 days talking with Dad, the visitation, and the funeral. I had subconsciously forgotten most everything, I guess. People had told me things that went on during those 4 days that I couldn't remember - it was all a fog. I couldn't even remember hearing my brother singing (he recorded a CD) the songs we had chosen for the service - "Is It Raining At Your House", "If Tomorrow Never Comes" and "Remember When". Well, every single memory came rushing back. It was one month ago today we put Mom in her final resting place. Has this happened to anyone else, I mean the "amnesia-type thing" and then it all comes flooding back in one instance? I just want her back so I can kiss her, stroke her beautiful silver hair, hold her oh-so-soft hand, and tell her I love her "more" (that was a game we played in the end). I know that's selfish because she is peaceful now and with her other loved ones.
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