I was out in the field yesterday for work, and while looking for an address of an employer I was trying to find, saw 3933 on a mail box. Now, under normal circumstances, I would not have even noticed, other than to think, hmmm that address is Dad's old phone number, smiled and went on my merry way... Problem was that I couldn't remember if Dad's number was 3933 or 3993..still can't... So I went home after work, and as I was changing my clothes realized that I can't remember my Dad's phone number. I know it's a crazy reason to have a breakdown, especially considering that my Dad has been gone for just shy of 12 years... I truly thought I had all this crazy sh*t out of my system and had moved on...It was like I had lost a part of him...Like a little peice of what I had left of his memory had just disappeared.. So naturally I cried my eyes out, feeling like a total moron but unable to stifle the feelings that were beating against my heart.. So now I am still really upset about this, even though I do think it's nuts, I'm sitting here now trying not to cry at work... Has anyone else ever had this kind of reaction to something so trivial over a parent you lost years and years ago? Or am I completely off my rocker??
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