My dad died May 6th 2006 at home peacefully in his sleep but suddenly. My mom and I have been trying to cope ever since. I am an only child and moved back home, that is hard when you are 25 and depressed beyond belief. I put on a happy face for friends, work and in public when inside I am a mess of anger, grief, denial, and jealousy for those that still have a father. I know I am selfish for thinking I want my dad back and my mom's beloved husband back but I can't help it. It will be one year very soon and now my mind has finally found the time to break down and try to come to terms with this and in my heart I know I am not ready. I don't have a rock, my dad was the rock of our family and now my mom needs me and I can't be there. I was there during the funeral planning, I kept it together like my dad would have wanted but now I can't and I don't like it one bit. I have always been the strong stubborn one like my dad and now I am falling apart miserably. I don't know where to turn, my friends don't know what to do because they have not been through this and I don't have a boyfriend, husband or anything like that to lean on. I am at a loss for words and coping skills. If anyone can help please do I need a shoulder now...
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