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This is my story.
I've lost three people very close to me all in the last year. My friend, who I had class with, and grew very close to, went home one day early from school because she wasn't feeling well. She never came back. She was diagnosed with either meningitis or encephalitis (no one realy knew what was happening) and went into a coma. For six months she was in that state, before dying Febuary 22 2007. It was annouced over the loudspeaker at school. A little over a month later, on March 31 2007, two friends of mine, one who I had played softball with and known since I was in 7th grade and her best friend, who had once been my softball coach were killed by an intoxicated driver who ran a red light. The player who had been killed has a younger sister who I also play softball with and see at school everyday. With all the pain I'm feeling, I don't even know how she can function. But now, after all this has happened, and even though its been like nine months I still can't believe its happened. I really don't think about them all the time, but if I ever see a picture, or hear their names, I pretty much lose it. I can't believe they're dead. It hits me when ever I'm looking at them. That they're gone and won't be able to live anymore, and that we'll never see them again. I can't believe that they were only 17, 18, and 22 respectively when they were killed, and it was so sudden and cruel.
And now, I'm so scared about my family getting killed or other friends or even me. It would be so easy for someone to run a red light and kill me, or one of my little brothers and sisters. My dad was just in a car accident a few months ago because someone ran a red light. If my dad hadn't been slow pulling forward when his light turned green the driver of the other car would have hit his door instead of the front of his car. My dad could have easily been killed that day. I'm so scared. If I lose anyone in my family, I will lose it. I just miss those girls so much and I'm dying of anxiety and fear about losing others.
I've lost three people very close to me all in the last year. My friend, who I had class with, and grew very close to, went home one day early from school because she wasn't feeling well. She never came back. She was diagnosed with either meningitis or encephalitis (no one realy knew what was happening) and went into a coma. For six months she was in that state, before dying Febuary 22 2007. It was annouced over the loudspeaker at school. A little over a month later, on March 31 2007, two friends of mine, one who I had played softball with and known since I was in 7th grade and her best friend, who had once been my softball coach were killed by an intoxicated driver who ran a red light. The player who had been killed has a younger sister who I also play softball with and see at school everyday. With all the pain I'm feeling, I don't even know how she can function. But now, after all this has happened, and even though its been like nine months I still can't believe its happened. I really don't think about them all the time, but if I ever see a picture, or hear their names, I pretty much lose it. I can't believe they're dead. It hits me when ever I'm looking at them. That they're gone and won't be able to live anymore, and that we'll never see them again. I can't believe that they were only 17, 18, and 22 respectively when they were killed, and it was so sudden and cruel.
And now, I'm so scared about my family getting killed or other friends or even me. It would be so easy for someone to run a red light and kill me, or one of my little brothers and sisters. My dad was just in a car accident a few months ago because someone ran a red light. If my dad hadn't been slow pulling forward when his light turned green the driver of the other car would have hit his door instead of the front of his car. My dad could have easily been killed that day. I'm so scared. If I lose anyone in my family, I will lose it. I just miss those girls so much and I'm dying of anxiety and fear about losing others.
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IMMEDIATELY get help.
This is not going to go away. You seriously need to see a therapist or doctor or perhaps both...
Seriously... professional intervention is in order.
Jo :)
Seeing pictures or other reminders of your friends may have this effect on you for a long itme. The fear of losing others seems to have overtaken you, and while someof it might be part of the shock and grief, you need to get that under better control. Talk to your parents, call a crisis hotline, or something, if you need more than just us to help you deal with this.
I am sorry for your great loss.
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