I found this forum from a counselor I was texting with at the Crisis Text Line.
On 10.2.16, I found out that the night before, one of my best friends was at a wedding, and choked on something. She apparently excused herself to go to the bathroom, as a pharmacist she knew the hymlich and probably didn't want to cause a scene. She was found unconscious by another wedding guest some time later, and the paramedics were unable to recessitate her.
She was 28. In the last 10 years, we've never gone more than a few weeks without talking, texting, snapping, etc. We have lived in different cities since I graduated in 2008, but that never kept us apart from at least yearly/twice yearly visits, and the incredibly close relationship we had built.
In the last 10 years, I've buried four other friends - to cancer, drunk driving and suicide, but this one is so different. The loss is something that haunts me and although working with a counselor and a psychiatrist, am having a lot of trouble with the emotions associated with such sudden loss. If anyone has experience, I'd love to talk.
There are more people here today. I'm feeling guilty bc last night was harder than I let on when I was asked but I was honest enough to say that today being here is the best I can do. There are 6 women in this group. Not sure why that feels like so much. I'm nervous to be a wreck again today and I just want to fast forward to the weekend so I can rest. But I'm also terrified for the weekend bc I...
hi, i got this site suggested by the book bipolar 101. i hope this works out for me