I'm having a really bad day. Even though its been 7 1/2 years it feels like yesterday. I miss Amanda so much and the questions of her death still loom and will never be answered. The woulda, coulda, shoulda, and the if only's have crept back into my life today. Does anyone else have these day when it feels like yesterday and the pain is just as intense? I just want to die because then the pain would be gone. I just want the pain to stop. I just want to die and have it all stop. I can't bear this burden anymore. Why has God given me such a huge cross to bear? I've got to find a way to be strong. Please help me !!
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