Ever since some close friends of mine died, I've been very scared of dying myself, or especially of someone in my family dying. It's really eating away at me. I'm pretty sure I think about it almost every night and also when my parents leave or go to work. Like, what if this is the last time I'm going to see this person, and I don't even know it? It's driving me crazy. And I've written letters to some of my family members to read incase I am suddenly killed some how. The letters say things I would want said incase I can't say them before I die. Is this normal? Why am I doing this? Also, I torture my self with toughts about life if people close to me died. I don't like these thoughts, but I can't get them to go away. I'm just really scared and uncertain and always worrying about those closest to me.
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