It is still so fresh. You are probably leaning between denial and the next stage of grief. Having a difficult time moving through all the emotions. The holidays will be tough. I dread them. I want to try to honor them, if I can get my strength up to do it. We all go through things like ours, each handles them in their own way. Sometimes good, sometimes bad. We're here, we care.

Rainbowmama

I deal with life like dreams by trying to analyze why I had them. Since my husband passed, I dream, but do not remember the dream and wake up with a deep sadness, knowing he must have been in it. Just like you, I think I'm trying to turn back time. As much as we try, we cannot change reality and that hurts just as much.

The most important thing to remember is what you are going thru is normal. nobody told me that grief happens in stages. Denial,angry sadness, and finally acceptance (it takes a while for some of us to get to this point). The truth is there is no easy way to get thru this. Unfortunately it is gonna hurt. Not only is your mourning recent, but you lost 2 parents. My prayers go out to you, and know there's no easy way to get through it but you will get through it! It takes time. And your fellings are normal, they may change from day to day but it's all part of the grieving process.

My mom went away on July 22, 2007. It's been so hard. But last week, I had a dream about her. She was playing with my girls and she hugged me and told me that she would come back to protect me just as she always had. She also told me that she love me. And then we hugged!
I swear it was real..I could FEEL it. Yes, when I woke up I was heartbroken that she wasn't real. But then I thought, maybe she was. She wanted to let me know that she was still here in some way, so I didn't feel so alone. There is no doubt that your life has changed. But your love for them and their love for you hasn't. I try to think of my dreams as little visits from the ones I love. I hope this helps. I'm here if you need a friend.

My mom passed away Sept 15, 2007. I have had 3 dreams where she is in them. I remember them. The first two dreams, she didn't say anything. The last one, she did. When I wake up in the morning, I sort of feel good. I feel like I really saw her and I feel at ease. Don't get me wrong. I have really bad moments. Yesterday was one month and I was with my dad for the morning. I feel guilty because I did not get to say goodbye and had we known how critical she was, we would not have left her that night. My dad, sister and I are having a difficult time with guilt.

Same thing has been happening to me lately, except I think I am dreaming what I wish were true. For example, I dreamed that I found three letters that my Mom left for me, when I actuality, we never got a chance to have "last discussions" as she had a stroke and declined so rapidly (mentally) from there. I almost feel as if there is no closure, even though we new she was dying. My dreams are very vivid. Hugs Carol!

I think many times those we love speak to us in dreams to let us know they are doing well.
Sometimes the dreams are just our own thoughts.
You have to search your heart. If it seemed so real I think it was a loved one speaking to you... a sign.

Dreams are so sweet but bitter at the same time. It has been 13 months since my son went to sleep.
I had a dream that we were just walking around and I put my arm around him and I "could feel him" literally. That was just soo amazing. Another dream was that he was back and I was just showing everyone "Look he came back to me". A recent one was when he was a baby and I was carrying him and I could feel him and feel all of the love and I told him "I missed you so much, I'm so glad you came back" he just looked at me and I smiled.

I love these dreams because it feels like I am right there with him. It feels so real like he is right in front of me. But when I wake up, then that opens the flood gates. It has taken me about 3 - 4 days to stop crying after the dreams. But once it has been a while I pray to another dream with him.