I have expreienced what are called "waves" of grief. For one or two days, I seem fine, almost normal. Then, suddenly it hits again, and it hits hard. You fall into that dark, deep well, with seemingly no way out.
Since you seem to be so paralyzed with grief, if you have a primary care physician, I would start there. He can refer you to those who may be able to help you more.
You have become such a special friend to me, I hate to see you hurting so. Reach out to someone in the medical profession.....soon....please? Love you! Rainbowmama

I also have become depressed like it just happened before too. You think you are better and then whamo! I agree go to the doctor and counseling it really helps. Take care
Kel

Totally agree - grief comes in waves - only mine last for weeks. Taking prozac now - not as bad but still there.

Hi, I understand what you mean by thinking your going downhill. My daughter just passed 9 weeks ago., and I think Im still in shock, at times I think ok..Im doing ok...then all of a sudden, someone pulled the rug out from under me and I cry uncontrollable and my husband thinks Im going crazy. I want to tell her bye, even thought about a psychic. I dont know what to tell you, but Im so sorry for your pain, the deep burning pain that seems to never go away. I hope that it will get better for both of us. God bless you...and I will pray for you and pray that we both get peace and understanding.

13 years later I still have my ups and downs. I am trying to hold back the tears to reply now. I wish that I had the answer, I wish that I could say that time heals. I feel that I miss her more now than ever. Praying does help. I pray to her all the time. I still talk to her and about her.

Hang in there. "When bad things happen to good people" is a great book. It helped me

I hate to have to tell you this, but even 7 years later I have one of those meltdowns every now and then with no warning and seemingly for no reason. It's what makes us human.

Like most of the previous post it just can come out of nowhere and bite you. I will have weeks with no grief and then for some reason it bothers me again. I've grown to accept it as part of my life...don't like it but...

yes this has happened to me a few times,both times I ended up in hospital.And to tell the truth I feel myself back sliding again, fight it every day,I really cant give you any answers,except it takes some of us longer to move threw the stages of grief. (((((HUGS)))))

My Dad died a few months ago and I was doing really well, Then I found this site and was half way through a post when I lost it, I was at my desk at work and cried uncontrolably. I went home and the next day went to the doctors and asked for some anti depressants. She refused to give me them as im not going through depression its grief. I was given time off work and that week I really finally let the emotion out that had been building since his death. I cry almost every day but I think its good to cry. Let the emotion out anyway you need. Go to the doctors and see about counseling, mine will be starting soon. All my love Layla xx

I crashed this morning after a family get-together last night, when I was trying to be emotionally strong. We need a lot of love, folks (and maybe some counseling).

Dear Mamaschild...You need to try and ease your mind..you cared for your mom for the last 5 yrs...That is Wonderful..and I know she is looking down thinking...What a Wonderful Daughter I raised...even if you feel like some descions where not the right ones...Think of the BIG one...you kept her where she would be most happiest- With you! I will pray for your strenght to get thru this and for your father. But, hold your head high and remember the Great thing that you did...she sure is...and you will be together one day...And she will know who you are on that day...and kiss you for all that you did for her. I lost my daughter 9/27/07 and guilt for alot of things has swept over me...I keep her picture here in front of me on my computer screen...and I talk to her as if she was here...that seems to help me...I think she has forgiven me for some things that I done, and for some things that I didnt do...But...I will see her again..and cant wait to feel her hug me and kiss me again.....God Bless you! Sallie

I have had this since Mom died. I have times where the pain and grief are so painful and so overwhelming that I can hardly breathe.

Then out of nowhere, I feel better for a while. I still hurt, but i feel more positive I guess. I wish I knew what triggered the good and the bad!