I had a dream of my father last night. WE saw eachother and i wrapped my arms around his neck and said i loved him, and he told me he loved me too. But then we were seperated. i could see him infront, but i was frozen. I couldn't move, as much and as hard as i tried. WE couldn't be with eachother. Was my father there just to say he loved me again, or is this all my emotions and flashbacks mixing together? I miss him so much that a pit has grown in my chest and i feel like i am going to cave in on myself. I'm empty without him. He was my everything. Has this happened to anyone else, and do you feel more saddened after having the dreams?
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