Don't read if you can't handle graphic information. I lost my daughter Amanda 5/6/2001. She was somehow strangled by the cable of a home work out machine at my ex's house and was found with her left breast and privates exposed. He found her at 7pm and the police showed up at my house to tell me at 2:30am. He never called me. I called and called and called him but he wouldn't talk to me. 911 wasn't even his first phone call. He planned the funeral behind my back. I asked for one song and he didn't honor my wishes. The preached never mentioned Amanda had a Mother and Sister only a Father and Brother. The preacher even had the balls to say to me after the church service "the family thanks you for coming". I have so much rage inside of me for all of this. I hired a bagpiper to play Amazing Grace at graveside and I found out later why it was so short. My ex told him to just run through it once and leave. I had to fight him just to help design her placard. I hate him so much. How could he do this to me and my family especially at a time like this. I'm so angry and it just eats me inside and I know its not healthy. Please help me. Does anyone have any ideas? I wish he were dead, I hope he's miserable for what he's done but I'm sure he just doesn't care, he got his last digs in after such a bitter divorce. I cannot imagine doing what he did. After 911, he would;ve been my very next phone call. I don't get it. Why? Any ideas will be appreciated.
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