They opened heavens gate and my sister walked in. My mom, dad, brother and grandparents were there to meet her. They were so happy to see her. The angels sang and children danced. As happy as they were to see her coming, I was just as sad to see her go. She is healthy and happy again. All those years I begged her to get away from her husband. All the years I watched worry and addiction slowly destroy her. I told her over and over there is a better place, there is a happy life, there is peace...I wanted to help her fid it. She's found it now..without me. She walks on streets that know no danger. She never feels hunger, pain, cold, worry. She feels love beyond limits every second of every day. There is no room for pain in her world. Her body doesn't hurt. She doesn't crave prescription drugs that never seem to last until she gets paid. She never has to worry about the rent, power, or the food lasting. She never worries that her child is getting in trouble. She knows all will be okay. Me? I am broken. I am happy for her, but I am sad for me. I am thrilled she is in paradise. I am sad because I am apart from her. I should be happy for her, but I cry for me. My love for her is strong. My mind wants everything for her that she has. My heart wants her here with me. Sweet Tammie..you are home, you are happy, healthy and beautiful. You are surrounded with love. I am not crying for you baby, I am crying for me.
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