I am trying to get on with my life after losing my dad six months ago. I had my second baby seven weeks ago and since then the flood gates of grief seem to have opened. I think I put my grief on hold, as i was so busy sorting things out when I was pregant and arranging my dads things/funeral. I thought I was doing ok, but can't seem to pick myself off the ground. Finding it hard to cope with two children, but mostly feeling so angry that he is not here and every time i think of him, it's like I have just realised he is not here and it hits me like a ton of bricks.I have never felt hurt like this and being a bit of a control freak who normally helps others with things like this, am getting frustrated with myself for being so glum and feel constant guilt as my poor hubby keeps getting the brunt of it all. Help!!!
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