There just seem to be those days that make you miss a person the most. Holidays are hard. My "brother" passed away may 2006. To him my birthday was always a big deal. My 16th birthday is one I'll never forget (February 2006) slow dancing was my brothers thing he would dance with my from the time I was a baby. My 16th birthday was our last dance. To this day I wish I would of held on just a little bit tighter for a little bit longer. Every year since his passing my birthday sucks. Bad things seem to happen but there is a big part of me that doesn't want to enjoy it because he isn't here. Over the past 8 years things have gotten easier but there are days that break me. He missed seeing me before prom. He missed high school and college graduation. He will miss my wedding and the birth of my children someday. Him missing my wedding means my favorite slow dance partner won't be there to celebrate.
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