Yes I can relate more than you know. I lost my dad recently and he was rock. I know my life will never be the same.

The loss of a Mother is very hard.Your Mother is the person that loves you no matter what.I lost my Mother,6 years ago and I still miss her.Just remmember that above all the most important thing that your Mother wanted was for her child to be happy.You will greve for your Mother,you will allways miss your Mother,But when the time is right for you,try to be happy for your Mother.

Yes, I can relate to that. for over a month when I woke up in the morning, the first thing I thought of was that my daughter Shana was dead. It was like practicing a sort of reality orientation exercise on myself.

HELL YES. EVERY DARN DAY I REMEMBER LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY....It is tough...but you DO get through....and all kinds of questions will come to mind and what if's and just have to keep in mind what's done is done ...there is no going back but it is how you deal with the here and now the new NEW way of living here and now it all depends on you...it is hard but you will get through...the first year and holidays are hard but you make it through...have faith and be blessed!

Yes. I know. After my Mom passed in September, I typed the words I knew I'd eventually have to do. From late that night into about 1:00 a.m. I did what you did. I typed emails - "Mom Passed Away" - to those I wanted to advise.

But for the rest of the night until 4:00 - I sat next to her empty hospital bed here at home staring out the window. Her arm wasn't there to comfort anymore. I can't even tell you what I felt. I don't know. I just looked out into the dark night.

But I had alot ahead to take care of. And that's why I'm telling you - wake yourself up just long enough to realize that even planned final arrangements can go badly. You must try to hold the numbness to a minimum - just long enough to do some clear thinking for the next several days. Don't be convinced that someone else will handle it all.

You have time to mourn the greatest loss of your life - your Mom. But listen for her voice and what she'd be telling you right now. Think clearly.

Mothers are like the lanterns in a lighthouse. When they go out, we have to steer our boats more slowly and cautiously, to get to the shore safely.

My heartfelt condolences. I wish I could be there for you.

I most definately can too...isn't it incredible that we can understand each others pain so well. If I say it too often in my head "Dad has died" it doesn't make it more real, it just seems more UNreal. I hate it when that wave of grief hits me and sweeps me off my feet and carries me down what feels like white water rapids. But then I come into the calm water again and that's when I think my Dad is near me trying to comfort me. Does this make any sense?

It's normal, I still feel that way at times.
I'm sorry for your loss. Huggs, Rainbow