My Mom died unexpectedly at age 50 this last February. The first couple months were filled with shock and almost wanting to forget about it. About a month ago that stopped and I am a wreck. I remember everything about my Mom and how she isn't hear and it hurts so much I can't breathe half the time. I don't know how to live without her. Everything is horrible and it is affecting me in every aspect of my life. I have few people to talk to and have always been very self reliant. Now I don't know what to do and don't know how to not hate this life that I have without my Mom. I know nothing can bring her back but I still can't get over how much I NEED her. I want so badly to do something but don't have the energy to. I want to sue the hospital that I feel killed her but my father is against it. I want these people to kow that to me they murdered her. It is never going to be ok. All I have right now are memories that make me cry, thoughts that make me cry harder, and my mom dead in a grave. I wake up everyday and go to bed every night not believing that this is my life. I need people who know what this is like. It's the worst community to be in but I need help from someone who knows.
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