I try to forget it, but I lost a lot of important people at this time of year. In the last three years three of my grandparents, my favorite aunt, my cousin, and my great uncle all died over the holidays. Cancer. Cancer. Stroke. Cancer. Shot. Cancer. Two died at thanksgiving, one the day before, one on thanksgiving. Two died on Christmas, one Christmas eve, one on Christmas day. One died on new years day. The last on Jan 3, today. I took care of those who were sick. I hate those memories the most. My cousin was killed in Iraq. And I cant forget all that happened. I hate this, I dream about it, but I dont think I have any options. Is there any way to just fry shitty memories out of my head?
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