Today is my husband's birthday and next month will be the first anniversary of his death which is my birthday. I have scheduled that day off from work, I just want to be alone that day. I know my family will want to celebrate my birthday,they feel that I should be getting my act together by now but I am still in too much pain. My husband and I were married 25 years, 22 years driving tractor trailer together,we spent all our time together. I thought I would be doing better by now but time is not the great healer, I thought it would be. I feel like half of a person, I have been on 3 medication for depression all of them gave me serious side effects. I guess nobody understands unless they have gone through similar circumstances. I am in denial I think in the back of my head I am still waiting for my husband to walk through the door and say hi. I know that sounds weird but it is the only way I can get through some days. Thanks just wanted to talk to somebody that really understands.
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