My dad passed 10/31 and i have had two nightmares since. One he is in the coffin and we all know that he has passed but his arms and legs keep moving. Its so weird. Tonight he was yelling at me. Telling mom I did't call the ambulance. But I don't know what that means. He did die at home and mom called the ambulance and I was doing CPR (against his wishes) but he didn't have a DNR order. Could this be becasue I feel guilty for trying to revive him? But I had to because it is my father and I couldn't just not do anything. I don't know I am so messed up. Please give me some advice?
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