Today I got a call that another family member died this morning. I was raised with her, grew up together. She chose drugs and alcohol when her mother passed because she couldn't handle it. Addiction is a horrible family disease that affects the entire family. I lost my only son, a young brother and now her to drugs. I am numb as it brings back the other losses that I am still grieving. My mother passed just 5 months ago. I am a strong person and one of faith but how much can a person actually endure?I have worked very hard to get to the point where I wasn't sleeping all the time to mask the pain, got closer with God, and feel like I am right back where I started once again. I don't want to be in this place of sorrow and misery. I can't go back there again, I have to move forward. I want to spend the rest of my days with love and happiness, and peace. I'm so grateful for this group where we can share and help one another during our darkest days.