This is going to sound horrible, but now I'm angry at my Mother. It is along story but she did something that shouldn't have surprised me and I realize how little she thought of me, after her death. We had a co-dependant relationship to say the least, but I want my memories of her to be the many many positive and wonderful things she did. I know the good Mom did by far outweights the negative, so I feel guilty for being upset and angry. I mean the womans dead, shouldn't I let it go, move on and only think of all the good she did? I feel hurt but then feel quilty for being this way.
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