How do you focus on now when the past is so blurry. My son was murdered. I didn't get to see his body. I haven't got to read any autopsy. Heck I really don't know the extent of his wounds. I know he was murdered and that is all. I need to see that my son is dead not just be told that he is dead. Some people maybe able to take the word of someone else but I feel the need to see his eyes closed with no emotion on his face. Sending me some ashes in the mail and telling me this is Wayman just doesn't do it for me. Going out where we buried those ashes doesn't do it either all I get to look at is ground because I can't afford a head stone. And even if I could all it could say is Wayman Scott February 20, 1974 to late 2006 because I don't even know when he was killed only when they found his body and that is not when he died. His body was dumped and was frozen so you know and the police no he was their for quite a while. How do I his mom moved on from this tragedy and enormous loss?
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