My sister died in 1975,i was 12 and my sister was 14 [she,d just had her birthday] i used to tell her when we fought "i wish you were dead" my god how i wished i,d never said such cruel word,s to her!,her birthday was 15th september and exactly one week later she died,the only person i could talk to had left me,i was so cruel and nasty to her i felt i was being punished by god for being so cruel,so even though she,s been gone all these years,i still think about her and miss her,my mum wouldn,t let me go to her funeral or to say goodbye at the hospital,so the last time i saw my sister was when she was going back into hospital,i never said goodbye and every single day of my life i am reminded daily that the only person in my family who i could talk to had died and i never got to say "I,m sorry" am i crazy for still missing her? my husband tell,s me to get over it,i can,t when i think of her all alone in the hopsital with no one but the nurses around her,it breaks my heart and yes i still cry, for the sister i hurt with such cruel word,s and for not being able to say "I,m sorry i love you" am i crazy to still be missing her?
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