Has anyone watched their loved one die. I had to make the dicision to turn off the machine on my husband of 30 years. I am not God, why ask me to make that kind of dicision? What if by some chance he would have pulled through and I took that away by unplugging him. I had to stand there by the foot of his bed and watch my darling take his last breath. It was nothing like I had ever seen. Now this is what I have flashing in and out of my head. His face. I have lost almost 100 pounds and still losing. Every time I got to eat, his face will be there. How do I get past the guilt and just remember him in a good way? It has gotten so bad that a friend of a friend got stuck in a wood chipper and died. I have nightmares about this. Death has never been this real to me. I have lost my parents and younger brother, but this is unreal. I really want to enjoy my life and eat a big messy pizza. Help please.
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