It was almost a year ago that my parents decided to take there own lives. In the last few months my life has been crazy, so I didn't always have time to think about it. As the anniversary gets close, it's all I think about. The official date on the death certificate is May 4(because that is when they were found), but I know the day they died is April 29 because they were very emotional saying goodbye to a friend and were never seen alive again. That's only 8 days after my little girls birthday. In fact one of the last things my mom did was send her a present. I'm trying to keep upbeat for her, but it's hard. Her birthday has always been a big event! It's her day. She has 1 day where she can eat cake for breakfast, skip school, go out anywhere! How do I do it this year? Throw a party? Smile all day long? I don't know if I can, but I want to do it for her. The death of her grandparents was very hard on her. She needs something good to look forward too! I usually start planning months in advance, save money, have fun organizing everything. Now it's crept up and I don't know if I can pull it off. Usually making her happy is everything to me, now keeping my sanity is everything to me. Advice please.
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