Hi Iam a mommy to four happily married with 2 furbabies(chocolate labs) For the most part Iam an upbeat person and most think I am verrry happy. Well my story in the past 6 years I have lost close to 20 ppl close to me. SO far this year I have had to attend 3 funerals, two of which were very close to me their ages were 23 and 35!! It doesnt seem to make sense! I have a hard time coping and the fact that Iam always the shoulder makes it harder doesnt seem like Iam allowed to mourn or cry or hurt! and I do best friends gramma, My BFF's lil brother it is just never ending I dont know how to grieve any more Iam hoping for this site to bring me to myself and lead me to know I am human and not the rock for everyone else...THank you for taking your time to read this!
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