A few days after my father died I was checking my phone messages on my cell phone I found a old message I has saved of his. The mistake for me was listening to it. I copied it to my phone and listened to it for long periods of time as I cried and felt that he left me and I was so alone. In the phone call he stated that he loved me and everything would be ok!! Well it wasnt and I know he knew that. For a while that old message haunted my thoughts and i even memorized it! I dont listen to it much anymore but i think of his voice and I know that he loved me that message is a reminder to me. Im mourning in my own way and it is the most difficult time for me the loss of my father. Will it ever end?? Phone call beyond thats how i feel! Telling me he loved me and i will eventually be ok!!
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