I am not the same person. I know I lived through the accident and he didn't, but part of me is still gone forever nonetheless. I feel like a failure now. I know that I am not doing my job as well as I used to be able to and I'm not keeping up with my friends and colleagues like I used to. I get so depressed when I think of all I'm just letting slip and yet, I guess I am doing the best I can with whatever energy I feel I have left in me. How do you reconcile yourself to never being the same person again? How do you grieve for the one you lost and the person you used to be at the same time? Will I ever be that person again or is this it?
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