Today (4th of July) was our son's favorite holiday & although we were invited to a couple of cook-outs, we have chosen to spend the day by ourselves. Last year we were all together at a cook-out & I am finding it much easier to stay home today, as I don't have it in me to be around others, answer questions, put on a happy face, try not to remember the happy times we had together last year. Maybe I am taking the easy way out, but I think we find it much easier to be alone today with our memories.
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