My mother passed on July 30th, 2013 from Acute Respiratory Distress Syndrome (which was caused my double pneumonia in bother lungs), the Swine Flu & multi-organ failure. She was in the hospital for 50 days. There were good days and there were bad days but I was never able to actually have a conversation with her while she was in the hospital due to a ventilator. She was able to mouth words and we were able to catch them sometime & the last thing she ever mouthed to me was I love you. My brother, my husband, my step father and myself were in the room with her when she passed away. I was 3 months pregnant. She got to go to my first doctors appointment to see our little girl and she was so excited. I'm having a VERY hard time. I feel alone. I can't talk to anyone about this because its like taboo around here if we mention her because everyone was so emotionally attached to the situation. I have constant breakdowns over little things and just the thought of her not being able to meet my daughter and be apart of her life. I could really use a friend and it seems I'm all out of them. Just looking for some support in this horrible time in my life. I can't even enjoy being pregnant but I'm sad.
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