It's four years since my father died, it was sudden, he took his own life, and that as they say was that. Only that wasn't that at all. 4 years later and I can't move on, 4 years later all the negative emotions I feel are eating me alive. I've tried everything...crying, counselling, therapy, drugs... perscription and otherwise, alcohol, self harm, nothing helps and I don't believe in god. The thing is I know I'm not special, I know there's millions of people out there dealing with similar and far far worse, and still I can't see a way forward, what do I do now?
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