Hello all, I hope everyone is doing okay. I know everyone has seen how my daughter is venting to me here on this site and I am hoping no one thinks bad of me at this point. Some of what she is saying is true and some is not. I had relapsed a few weeks ago and ended up in the hospital. It was not as serious as they made it out to be but they called EMS. I am not here to be judged or make excuses for the way I handle myself but as we all know sometimes it becomes a daily struggle with life in general on top of the lonliess and the big part of you missing when you lose a child. I am not perfect and will never be but I am working myself and because of this I have had two of my kids turn on me which is very confusing to me at this point. I am blessed to have found this site and the church and the ladies I meet with once a week to help me understand and stay strong through this other trail I must be going through. Right now I feel I have lost two other children that I love with all my heart. I just want everyone to know I am not the evil person she has made me sound to be but I could sure use all the support I can get right now. I have been blessed but at the same time I feel I have been cursed. With all that I have been through in my life I know God will not let me go out like a demon. I want to thank each and everyone of you for the comfort and support you have given me these past few years. But of course as you know it is a daily struggle. I pray for all of us. Thank you for taking the time to read this.
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