I know that I am not the only one suffering but here is my story.... I am 46 years old. My mother developed alzheimers approximately 12 years ago. She passed away Dec. 2002. Although her death was hard it was also a blessing for her. The last 5 years of her life were horrible for her as she lived in a world all her own in which she knew no one. The day that my father was going to have to admit her into a nursing home, she passed away. As I said her death was hard but easier to cope with because of her condition. My father passed away suddenly in Feb. 2005, on my daughter's 13th birthday. My whole life he was my rock. I had always been a Daddy's girl and this literally shook my world out from underneath me. My husband, daughter and I lived in a different state at the time. My husband and I were having marriage difficulties and my emotional state went downhill rapidly. Three months after my father's death, my daughter and I moved back to my home state. Finally, after about a year and a half, I was beginning to get myself back together. In July 2007 my youngest brother (30 yrs old) died in a dirtbike accident. He was only 3 yrs. older than my son. He had always been like a son to me. When I was a teenager, I would take him everywhere I went. Then after my son was born, I had both of them together most of the time. I lost a brother and a son at the same time. A year has almost gone by and I am still in a downward spiral. I can barely get through the day without crying. I have a hard time staying focused on anything. I started having dreams of him months ago, but now they are coming more frequently and I wake myself up crying uncontrollably. I still can't talk about him or look at pictures of him. I am close to being at the end of my rope. Does anyone have any advice for me?
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