He was 16 and took overdose of drugs. It was horrible! I don't think I can and ever will get over it or stop missing him, thinking about him, dreaming about him. When I meet 16yr old boys it alwys makes me sad for some reason and makes me miss my brother. He would be 24 now. I was left alone to deal with my druggy mom and her druggy boyfriends. It makes me angry. I wish I could've helped him in some way at the time or told him how much I loved him and didn't want him to die and leave me here. But I was so young, I didn't understand what he was going through. I need him and miss him and wish he never felt so bad that he thought the only way was to leave this world. I try and stay away from hard drugs now myself because never want to end up like him or my mom or my dad who went to prison. God will the hurt every go away? I feel I'm gonna have this with me for the rest of my life. This pain in my heart, this longing and guilt. It really sucks sh--!
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