itz hard 4 me now. they died on the 4th Jan. i witnessd it, they were only 11 + 12. my MOST fave cuzins. it was partly my fault. i was talkin n only when they werent respodin did i realise sumthin was wrong. i calld 4 sumone n they got rushed off to hospital. the doctors couldnt save them. they died that same night. all my fault. at first i got on alright, sayin they were MUCH happier where they were now. but as time went on i missed their phone calls. i told myself they were on holiday. i missed their txt msg, their emails, letters n everything, n now i cant hide it 4rom myself. they'll never b wiv me again. they'll neva talk 2 me again. I'll never c them again. What do i do now? suicide or live with the guilt that it was my fault they died.
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