I love someone, he loves me back
We have had all sorts of relationships
We never fought between us, but we've fought for eachother
Some months ago, he told me about a battle i cannot help him win, but ive been trying to fight it from ruining his last few days...this battle is a cancerous brain tumor
I know this is a hard subject, but a few of my friends know him (we've never wanted to share our relationship with others, we were scared of loosing each other because it was going to happen once because of a so called ''friend''), and a few people know and understand how important he is to me
He's perfect in my eyes... hes kind, smart, loyal, understanding, caring, loving, strong, a great dancer (I always loved when he danced for me)
But mostly he's couragous..
He never took any treatment for his tumor, radiation wasn't possible since the tumor is near his brain, he didn't want me and his mum to see him suffer..he wanted us to remember him how he always was...so he didnt take cimo terhapy, instead he gave the chance of cimo therapy to an 8 year old boy, who know is a cancer surviver.
We were always there for eachother, but when he's gone i wont have anyone to care for, or anyone that truly cares about me. I dont think i would even have the courage to go to his funeral
Ive cut/hurt/choked.. myself before.
My mum isnt stable
My dad could end up in a wheelchair if he gets injured
And a sister i was never close to because there's a 12 year age gap between us
My friends are worrying about our exams, our prom, our friends and popularity....those are minor worries for me...major worries are how im gonna cope, how am i gonna stop myself from cutting, if im even eating, if my mum even cares, if my friends are gonna be there for me
And the sad thing is, that day after day im stopping to worry or care about myself and i might kill myself without even tryong to stop myself
Stay strong if you can and if you cant try harder, because your the only person that could help yourself
Consider these as you read.- What does God call. Nubuchadnezzar (v9)?-Describe 70year Babylonian captivity (refer to 2 Chron.36:21, Dan. 9:2)-vv 15-26: Think about the wine cup of the wrath of God that Jeremiah takes.
In my family I feel like a black sheep in a flock of white sheep. I’ve realized I don’t fit in with them. I’m so different from them I can think of more differences then things I share in common with them. This may seem drastic but I’m starting to wonder if I’m even related to them. Sometimes I feel as if I ended up here from another world or time period or something.