the loss of a best friend from suicide. I dont know anything really anymore. I feel like nothing is the same. Every minute is an hour. I am trying soooo hard to be happy for her, but I cant. I dont want to disapoint her. I know how much she would want me to be happy. I feel completely useless and I just dont know wat to do. I dont know how to talk about it. I have yet to cry infront of people, because I dont want them to see, and they all think that Im a bitch because I am not showing any emotion towards it. And I was one of her best friends. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I dont know anymore.
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