i am praying for you and you are in my thoughts,it is so hard to be angry, but it is so much part of the healing prosses, and i know God always understands and i am not sure it matters that you are angry at him,i have been so so many times, and he just excepts us and knows us,please don't be so hard on yourself,anger is all the questions why and the hurt and pain mixed in to one,he's a big God and i think he can take your little fire balls, that you throw at him,i am praying for your pain and anger,and your greif, and for the wound to heal.i will think of you in the comming days.

I am praying for you and I too have been angry at God for 2 years now but my troubles pale into insignificance against yours. I do wish you quick healing and to be in a place where the memories don't hurt anymore. I cry with you and I am angry with you - keep praying - God understands and gardener said your fireballs are part of your pain.