posted a couple of days ago asking about bulging discs.... been laid up again since Wednesday.... I did get an appt with a back specialist but it's not till the 15th. The pain was continuing to get worse, adn was starting to get pain in the back of my leg, it's off and on, sometimes in my butt in the sciatic nerve, sometimes a dull ache behind my knee... and having the worse pain when I cough.... so showing signs of herniated disk... So some friends told me last night I should go on to the ER because I'm not sleeping much and I'm in constant pain, and that maybe with some symptoms of a herniated disk they'd do something.

Stupid stubborn hardheaded alkie that I am, I decided I could drive myself, about passed out from the pain on the way, had to call an ambulance to come get me... the dr at the ER didn't do much of anything, gave me prescriptions for pain pills, and I had to get someone to pick me up and to get my car home. They gave me lortab 7.5 and naproxen 550mg, and put on my discharge papers rest and limit activity, and ice 3 times a day.

Got someone to get my prescriptions filled today... the meds were helping, finally had no pain at all earlier today, was really needing to do some laundry and figured it wouldn't hurt to throw some clothes in the washer.... well there was a 40lb bag of dog food on top of the washer, and I figured well, I don't have to lift it up or down, just 2 feet across to the dryer, I can do that.... WRONG!! put me in more pain, took a pain pill an hour later when I was supposed to... was still hurting after awhile but needed to eat something, was only up less than 10 minutes and was about to pass out from the pain. Stayed in bed after that....

Was on the phone with bf earlier, and my kittens decided to knock over the lamp next to me, that was turned on, and broke the bulb, so I had to reach over real quick and unplug it... which put me in more pain... was gonna leave the mess to clean up after a bit, just needed to try to get past the pain first... but one kitten decided to start batting the glass around, so I had to get up and clean it up. wasn't up long then either, and again about to pass out.

had to get up again, just a minute ago, hadn't let my dog out in so long and she started whining.... thankfully she was quick about it, but figured if I'm already up, and I was hungry, I'd go ahead and get a sandwich, again about ready to pass out. I'm not getting up again, not if I can help it. I mean, obviously I have to some, gotta go potty, let the dog out on occasion, feed them.... and I gotta eat too.... but the rest of the night, gonna try to stay put.

My mom is coming out here on Monday to do some shopping and cleaning for me, and wanted to take me back to her house till I get better, but my critters have worms (need her to get some dewormer) and she doesn't want them with her animals... and I can't handle the long ride to her house either. Gonna see if medicare will give me chore help till this passes, that's about all I can do.

A woman from a meeting here is helping out some, but she's been sick and not feeling too great, so I don't want to ask her for much. There are some other women I could ask for help too, but no one to come stay out here with me.

I'll deal with it though, kinda have to. just stressed out, and kinda scared, being here alone like this... but I have finally admitted I can't do anything and I gotta stop being so stubborn and gotta stay in bed as much as I can. no more lifting anything at all and no getting up unless I absolutely have to.

I wish my bf could come down here... he doesn't live down here, and he's upset he can't be here too.... he'll be here Thanksgiving weekend, but they're in their rush season, he works construction, they're trying to finish up for the year and they've moved to working 7 days a week now, no way he can come down yet. There's a chance he'll have to work this winter doing something with the company, but he's trying to not have to... he at least said if this leads to surgery, he'll do all he can to be down here no matter when it is