i am here cuz i was feeling like i was worthless not beingn able to get outta bed to do somethingg simple like walk to the kitchen let alone go with my roomates shopping for food. like every one im shure i have my good days and my bad days. i have 2 ruptured disks in my back and degenertive disk disese. i am on a waiting list for surgary to get it reparied as we have tryed almost every thingn else both me and my doctor can think of. im a tall person 6' 9" tall and the cause of my back ruptures is unknowen but suspected to be size. genetic defect and a wrong move at some point in my past. most of the surgans in the city will not look at my case cuz i have blood clotting issues witch make the chance of sucess much much lower. my understanding is theres a 25% chance of partal paralize with the surgary they want to do but due to my other issues theres a 75 - 80% chance with me . i hace pulmnary embolism. (4 blood clots in my right lung) high blood presher. possable heart murmurs.. watingg on test results as well on that. i was sitting here crying thinking of what a worthless sack i am. when i came across this site.
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