For quite some years now I have had an over whelming fear of general anaesthetics. I fear that I will suffer what is known as awareness. That is when the body is paralysed but the patient on the operating table is unable to tell the doctors they can actually hear and feel what is going on. The doctors of course believe the person to be anaesthetised. I have on a few occasions been able to have a spinal anaesthetic,but I know that not all surgery can be carried out this way. I have had general anaesthetics in the past,but have suffered panic attacks before hand. I have also actually sat up on the trolley outside the anaesthetic room and proceeded to remove myself and go back to my ward. This was after being given a premed. I have even had a few surgeries under local anaesthetic and local and sedation. I have been given a premed on most occasions,but have found that my extreme fear of general anaesthetics is just too much for these to work. I am expecting to have to have spinal surgery in the coming months and I know it will need to be done under a general anaesthetic. I'm bloody terrified. On a couple of occasions on going under,I have had a suffocating feeling.
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