i really am, i am always the bad guy, no matter what the issue i am the bad guy. i am the one that deals with everything and makes the decisions, that can be over ruled at any given time cause dad doesnt educate himself on Adam and how to meet his needs, which are very few, but, must be met. tomorrow i get to take adam to get blood drawn and an ekg, dad is pissed cause he doesnt want adam to go threw it, well it sux to be dad, he is on medication and blood tests should have been done a long time ago and the ekg is important. he mentioned his sister going to IEP meeting, i told him, cool with me, that means i stay home, i dont need her babysitting me thank you very much! why is it there is so much resentment from him over what i do with adam? i love him dearly, i take care of his every need, i spoil him just like i do my grandkids, but i also do not allow him to get away with murder, as well as with my grandkids. i blame nothing he does on autism unless it is clearly autism related. if you only knew everything the dr's have said about adam, it really all boils down to he is hfa, and extremely smart and showing his intelligence more and more every day. its like eeryone doesnt want to accept that he is going to do ok, and he needs to be treated just like any other 7 yr old in most situations. adam loves me, tells me atleast 50 imes a day, no matter what, even after he has been put in his room for 7 minutes for bad behavior he comes out telling me he loves me and i always tell him i love back, every time. hubby says i am too hard on him, i told dr this yesterday, that is when dr called hubby back in and told him, adam needs to be kept on track by everyone, not just the one he is with most of them time (me). I guess i needed to vent, again, do you see the pattern here? i do whatever it takes to get dad informed by the top specialists in the country, vanderbilt is one of the top rated childrens hospital/clinics on autism, and its like he listens then gets pissed because it means he has to cowboy up and he is so used to just blaming everything on autism that when behavior is bad and i say anything he gets pissed. adam did not stim all day long today, we went and saw mother, we played spy kids, current ocd thing, we went to speech therapy, i busted my ass for 4 months getting insurance to pay for this therapy so all the money is going to be refunded or made up with even more much needed therapy, and i report to him how it goes and what they want us to do at home and he gets pissed if i correct adams speech, i am very nice about it, i dont talk down to adam, i just tell him the right way to say it and he repeats it, i praise him, high-five him, do the happy dance, everything, and dad says i am too hard on him because i am always doing the stuff i do. idiot, see thats the problem, they all want it done, but only on days they feel like it. which are far and few between, i could almost understand if adam whined or complained when i work with him, but he doesnt, he loves to learn! and as usual i am dealing with mother, called hospice, juggling all this is not easy, but i am doing it and working, wtf else can i do? ok, sorry, i didnt mean to turn this into a big vent but i needed to get it off my chest, seems like every time i am able to give great news about adam, dad resents it, i dont know what to do anymore, i wont stop doing what the dr's say to do because it is working and i will not be a part of not helping adam reach HIS potential, whatever it is, i am getting him there with or without anyone else helping, i just wish i had the legal right to tell them all to get on track or get the hell out of our way, cause we are a team and we are going to make it with or without the rest of them! sorry friends, i just needed to vent and needed yall, thanks for being here for me, i promise once i am certified i will help anyone here via internet with iep problems, that is going to be my gift to all the autism and other children with disabilities groups for all the support and help everyone here has given me and adam when we need it most. cant tell any of you just how much i love you for all your support, there are no words....hugs,
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