Well....I dunno how to tell ya'll this but....I AM FREEKING PISSED OFF AND TICKELED TO DEATH? Ok....Alex's father has gone from $2,500-3,500 a month in gambling to a whopping $9,000 EVERY DAMNED MONTH SINCE WE HAVE BEEN IN TRIAL! CAN U BELIEVE THIS! I am really down a hurting inside.....HOW......COULD HE? I am struggling so damned bad right now and ya should've see the $569.00 bill he spent at Cavenders Boot city, her days at the spa, nails, hair, Lane Bryant,THEY PAY FOR THEIR BOYS TO GO TO SLYVAN LEARNING CENTERS........AND SCHOALISTIC PRODUCTS! Aghhhh sicking......Alex is THE CHILD WITH AUTISM .....THE ONE WHO NEEDS THIS STUFF! WTF? I got to see her book keeping.....and she sucks at it....I found sooooooooo many glinches.....and hell....I suck at math! Ohhhhhhhh but do I know my $$$$$ especially.....SINCE I HAVE NONE! I was in her office from 1:00 pm till 5:50 pm and what I saw.....tore me up! I also will have to miss school tomm. and go back to her office with yet even more info......documents.........ahhhhhhhhh I am so damned sick of this! My tooth is acheing and I CAN'T AFFORD A DENTIST! Then to have to sit at the conference table and see...read.....all the $$$$$ they go and blow....ya wanna know what really pisses me off ? THEY HAVE GONE TO VEGAS A DOZEN TIMES SINCE THIS TRIAL HAS BEEN GOING ON! OMG..........HOW STUPID! I have to come up with even more for my list...that is a good thing for Alex.....the atty. said his father has alot of explaining to do to the judge! ya think! We have been suffering all this time in this shack....not even able to cook a decent meal.......cause the sheetrock crumbles and falls right over the stove....no lights in the kitchen....no running water in the kitchen.....HELL.......WE ARE WORSE OFF THAN THE BEVERLY HILL BILLIES! I dunno...how I am gonna pull this off......BUT I WILL.....I AM TAKIN HIS ASS TO THE CLEANERS! oH AND MY ATTY WANTS ME TO GO SPY AND TAKE PICTURES TOO!!!!! IAMO.......Inspector Gadget again! I am just emotionally torn down and have no time to be runnin here and there...I NEED..WHAT I NEED......AND WILL.....DEAL WITH THE SELECTION OF THE SERVICES...WHEN WE GET THE $$$$$.....But...NOOOOOO these companies want $$$$$ or else!Dunno....I am in a funk.....I will not sink......I MAY FLOAT.....BUT I WILL NOT SINK!
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