hi everyone i havent been on in a while i decideded today to take some time for my self and read up because this place has really helped me in about the last year but my friends yesterday is when i had my own meltdown and i havent been able to get this lump out of my throat its been two years since michael was dx as you all no im sure autism has taken our lives over i thought i was ok yesterday was our first dan appt wow very overwhelming but anyways ill do whatever i have to do but some where i lost my self i have three other kids that need me to and i have kinda failed on that part but im trying to make it better michael is amazing all my kids are but what michael has been through words cannot express im kinda confused why im so sad now i have worked my f***ing ass off one year ago i couldnt even get him in the tub no words nothing omg i no you all no what i mean the last three months i want to say has been a miracle i can get him to say about 50 words now he knows his emotions he said love you im crying right now we do play project i highly recommend to anyone its hard work but wotrh it all the pain in my back lol anyways i guess i just wanted everyone to no thank god for this place sometimes im gona be ok i dont really no what happened two years of tears came out all at once it was crazy and also i just wanted to say sometimes i can just come on here and read discussions and posts and not even type a word and feel so much better thanks
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