Hello, I am the mother of a 7 year old autistic boy. My son's father left shortly after his birth and my entire family dis-owned me because I am asian and my son is half black. I have raised my son alone pretty much since birth. I haven't any family or any friends. It's been beyond hard with no support...but we've managed ok. I was re-married for a very short time (one year), but then my husband died from a heart attack. Because of that, I am fortunate to get his income and I do not work. We moved to a very rural area shortly after we wed...and by rural I mean 580 people...surrounded by towns of 800 people. No big cities with in 80 miles. I do not know a soul. I haven't really spoken with anyone in about 2 years and I am not sure I can bear it anymore. I need to get out and do things...I don't know how to handle that. I'm not sure what to do. I can't get a job...I need to be home for my son. And even if I got a job during school hours...what about all those days off they have? snow days, teacher conference days. How do I juggle a schedule around that? I am not a church goer, so church is out. If I don't talk to another human being soon, I might lose my mind.
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